Things I Don't Ever want to Forget

Things I Don't Ever Want to Forget

Last night, or actually, this morning at 5:45, I was rocking Noah as I burped him and he was sound asleep on my shoulder. The house was quiet and it was just me and him. I could hear his rythmic breathing in my ear and he was so close to me that I could feel his baby breath on my face. I snuggled a little closer and felt the tiny bit of baby hair he has left rub up against my face. It is so soft. Today I noticed that it is still the same shade of red that it was the day he was born...but he only has it left on one side of his head 

I don't ever want to forget the feeling of my baby's body snuggled up asleep in my arms.

I don't ever want to forget the smell or sound of their gently little breath or the feel of their soft skin.

I don't want to forget how Noah insists on sleeping on his side and often rolls and gets stuck in some weird position and needs me to come rescue him.

I don't want to forget how Landon plays garbage truck for hours on end, making everything small his "garbage" and even hooking up his video game remote as his "lever" for the claw.

I don't want to forget the beautiful smile that Noah shares with us every single morning when Landon and I go in there to get him.

I don't want to forget how often Landon asks to hug or kiss or hold Noah. I am so thankful that he loves his brother so deeply.

I don't ever want to forget how Noah stares longingly at Landon if Landon is not paying attention to him, and then when he gets attention, he breaks into a HUGE grin with such joy.

My life is so chaotic right now. I feel divided...so much to focus on and to do that sometimes I don't know where to begin. But, in the silence of Noah's room late last night I was reminded again that these days are fleeting and I don't want to forget these precious details of my boys' lives. This morning was insane. I threatened to forget it all again and throw in the towel and just sit down and have a good cry. But I didn't. I started one thing at a time, and now here I am with three or four things off the list, and a paper before me to write. Sometime I need to blog about my contentment...that sits right next to my discontentment. Until then...just wanted to journal a few things I treasure about my boys.