Leaving on a Jet Plane
Jonathan threw me a beautiful graduation party last night....B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L. If I were a photographer I would have some awesome pictures to show you, but alas, I was too busy enjoying myself and chatting the night away with friends and family who have so selflessly joined me on this journey. Jonathan made some AWESOME food and we enjoyed a beautiful evening on the deck with candles and lanterns and tiki torches and the best company one could dream up. The entire thing was a dream really. Thanks, Honey, for making me feel appreciated and special and loved. And thank you to all who came...you are each so very special to me!!
Landon made it through his first days of school last week. He did awesome. He seems to really enjoy it so far, and it definitely helps that his best buddy is in his same class. But he was very tired both days...definitely a transition. And he did get punched in the "body" on the playground the first day of school. But all in all, he seemed unphased by it. 
My little boy is growing up...fast!
And teaching....AWESOME. LOVED it. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with gratitude that I get to do THREE jobs that I absolutely love (counseling, teaching...and of course, being a wife/mother). Seriously, when I was done teaching last Tuesday, I felt high. I have never been on drugs, but I can imagine that it would feel something like I felt last week. The classes went awesome. My students were interactive and interested...and even came up to discuss the lectures with me afterwards. I loved it and can't wait to go back. I could go on and on...I feel so abundantly blessed.
But that doesn't mean there haven't been any bumps in the road. There have been. While I so love what I am doing, there have been times of high stress. It is difficult to go from being SAHM to having one child off to school three days a week and finding childcare for the other 2.5 days a week. Some of you who work full time are laughing at me...and some of you who don't work at all think I am crazy. I assure you I will find my way in all of this...I just like balance and when it is off, I feel it to the core of my being. I never want regrets regarding my children and family...and working has got to make me a better mom, not a worse one. But we are going through a ton of transition right now...so floundering a little is normal I think. Throw in there Jonathan's grandpa dying and my leaving for a 5 day national counseling conference on Tuesday...and you have a little stress. So last night was the party, today Jonathan left for the veiwing (about 3 hours away). Tomorrow I drive the kids up for the funeral. And Tuesday I leave at 7:30 in the morning to teach until 2 and then board a plane for Nashville. I get home late the following Sunday night. I have schedules to work out and clothes to pack and notes to write for those helping with my kids. I have groceries to buy and lectures to plan (bc I won't have time to do it on my trip). And well...my emotions get a little frazzled and my patience wear thin...and there were a few breakdown moments this week. But that is ok. It doesn't mean that this isn't all going to work out. It just means I am not as strong as I thought I was...or maybe it means that being strong doesn't have to mean being perfect. Maybe it all just means I had to ask for help and I don't like to do that...but in the end, asking makes me stronger. Maybe I can't have the BEST of both worlds. Or maybe I can. Or maybe...just maybe it is a little too early to tell. Perfectionism can wreak havoc...let me tell ya. I could go on and on...
On an entirely happy note, my little Noey is potty trained. I started trying to potty train him a week ago Thursday. The first three days went HORRIBLE. Absolutely, positively horrible. Maybe it was my thin patience. I don't know. But I was going to throw the towel in and start again when everything in life settled down a bit. But at that same moment he suddenly got it. He tells me when he has to go. He pees and poops on the potty. He did it at my neighbors and at my moms. He has been in underwear all day...no accidents. That kid is wonder kid.
So I am leaving...again. I am excited for all that I will learn, but with all this transition going on...it is a little more difficult to leave my children. I am used to this...I did it for three weeks for grad school. But there is just so much going on in our family right now. Details I have yet to share with you guys until we have a proper understanding of the ramifications and the outcomes. But suffice to say, that my heart already misses my little boys...Landon's toothless grin and Noey's ever present lit up eyes and swinging arms. I feel stretched way thin...but simultaneously thrilled and excited about all of the new opportunities going on in our lives. I feel abundantly blessed...to have these two life goals (two jobs I LOVE!) occurring in my life and the opportunities that come with each. And I feel absolutely, positively overwhelmed with gratitude for the family that God has given me to journey life with.
Have a great week friends.
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