My Music Man
Landon has been sitting with us in church instead of going to his class...for awhile now. He prefers it, and I guess I don't see why I should make him go to class if he doesn't want to. Yes, they would make the stories more age appropriate and perhaps the lessons a little more applicable for him...but this way he can worship with us and get used to real church. Anyway, yesterday we came home from church and he decided that he wanted to be a music leader. So he got out his homemade guitar (a paper plate with a ruler sticking out of it and some rubber bands stretched across), his drum and his tamborine and started "leading worship" in our living room. So apparently he is getting something out of being in church with us. There was something truly beautiful about my son standing in our living room in his whitey tighties and undershirt, playing his instruments and singing his heart out. I love that he is not embarrassed to sing in front of me or to pretend to be in a different setting, or sometimes...a totally different world. I love that he can stand in front of me and sing in his underwear 
He feels safe and comfortable and accepted and loved. And that is how it should be.
And Noah...he has absolutely amazed me these last few days. On two levels. The first is his newly found anger and desire to do all things naughty. This weekend he was into everything, and I do mean everything...and he was having breakdown after breakdown when we would tell him no time and again. He was a whiny, naughty mess. But on the flip side...his vocab exploded. Perhaps his brain hurts and that explains his behavior? I was making lunch on Friday and holding Noah at the same time (breakdown had just happened). Out of the blue he points at the pan and says, "grilled cheese." Then "I want grilled cheese." This weekend it was word after word that came rolling out of his mouth. My baby is growing up. What is it about kids this age that provokes us to make them repeat nonsensical words like grilled cheese over and over and over because we find it so cute?
My sister and her boyfriend babysat for us on Saturday night. I very spontaneously called her Saturday (mainly bc I was at wits end with Noah and desperately was hoping for a night off) and asked her, and was pleasantly surprised when she said that she could. So the boys made cookies with Aunt Brenn and played Tom and Jerry with Adam. Speaking of Tom and Jerry...Landon is not a laugh out loud kind of kid. He finds things funny from time to time, but doesn't really laugh at movies. I am the same way...so I get that. Anyway...I got a Tom and Jerry video for him from the library and the kid absolutely loves it. He watches it and just starts cracking up over and over and over again throughout the show. It is a side of him I have never seen before. So he has started to play-act scenes from the show (in safe ways of course). Last week him and my mom played Tom and Jerry all day long. I love that kid's imagination.
We have almost 3 feet of snow on our back deck. We have been slammed over and over and over again with storms. Driving has been absolutely treacerous. But for as much as I was dreading winter, it is going by fairly fast. Working these two days a week makes my week literally blink by. Literally. I 
love that the winter is going so fast...but I definitely don't want to feel my weeks of summer blink by I still find myself longing for the feel of a warm summer day with the windows open and the beautiful breeze flowing through my house bringing in the scent of fresh cut grass and June flowers. Yeah...I could get lost in that daydream.
One last thing. I absolutely LOVED counseling last week. I had some more difficult cases but I feel that I won some battles (still fighting the wars). I left on a high from my two days there...I felt like I was getting into the groove and really doing well. That sounds prideful...but I don't mean it like that .I mean, for as much as I was questioning and doubting in the beginning of all of this...I am becoming confident and really enjoying what I am doing. Really, really enjoying it. As in...I can't wait to go back on Wednesday 
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