High Alert

High Alert Friends

First of all, I have never had as many comments as I got yesterday. That was so much fun!!!

Second, I won't go into detail, but something is undoubtedly occuring and within 24 hours of this certain event occuring with Landon, my water broke and I was in labor. I am feeling such a mixture of excitement and anxiety. I think it might be worse facing labor this time becuase I know what I am in for, but am definitely hoping for a better experience. I wish you were here to keep my company...it is just Landon and I and the down pour of rain...nothing to do and nowhere to go (I am desperately afraid of having my water break in a public place). I feel scared....and hopeful...and excited...and nervous...and nostalgic...and scared...and unsure...and PETRIFIED!!!!

It is such a weird feeling to know that these are my last moments with my world just as it is. This could be my last day with just Landon. He has no idea this could very well be his last day without a baby brother. This could well be my last day not knowing what my second child looks like, feels like, smells like, acts like. There is so much in my heart and yet my mind is swimming with so much I feel completely inadequate and unable to express any of it in words.

I am going to take a shower and finish packing my hospital bag. Then I am going to make sure the house is in order. Be still my anxious heart...

Somehow I will keep you all updated, don't worry