Sorry to Disappoint 5-2-07

Sorry to Disappoint

I am STILL home. I had contractions through the night, as in every time I woke up I felt them, but again, they just never got stronger. I have to admit I hardly slept....my mind was everywhere. So I am tired today and a little discouraged...but still having contractions, just not the kind I want to have  I can't get over how much your support, encouragement and prayers have meant, and mean to me during this time. I think Jonathan thought I was crazy for being on the computer last night at 11:30 to update you all...but I felt that it was really important to update you bc I COVET your prayers and encouragement. Last night the contractions started rolling at 6pm, so I made dinner, ate, cleaned up and we all went on a nice long walk that included sand and hills  When we got home, I didn't want to sit down for fear it would all go away so I walked our subdivision a bit and then came in and got Landon all ready for bed, and then vacuumed my whole house. By that time I was exhausted, still having contractions, but getting really discouraged bc they just were not getting strong enough. Some of them were hard enough to make me stop and breathe and not talk...but most were just like, "ohhh....yep, that is a contractions." So...here I am today, May 2, still no baby. My appointment went well yesterday...I was a good 3 and there was a bit of other progress that is a little gory to write about on xanga, and she said my water bag is bulging (doesn't that sound gross?). She said, "See ya tomorrow!" but I know that with these things statements like that simply mean, you could go anytime...but there are no guarantees. So, unlike last week, I am keeping my wits about me and trying to keep my hopes from getting too high. It is a beautiful day. I will take that as a gift from the Lord bc I am not sure my mood would handle a dreary, rainy day all too well today. Thanks again friends...for everything.