Little Things Mean a Lot 10-11-06

Last week I went to my mom's to help with her garage sale. I felt functionable on Wednesday and Thursday, and was totally on my back Friday and Saturday...so I am not sure how much help I actually was..in fact I think they were all more of a help to me than vice-versa. But I made $160 dollars on my sales...so I left a happy camper about that.

Since then, nothing, as in...absolutely nothing has happened. I have been really yucky feeling these past days and have barely left my perch on the couch, or when it gets really bad...my bed bc there are less things to focus on in there. Poor Landon...he is bearing through this with me, but I feel terrible for him. Yesterday I had about 2 hours in the late morning that I felt ok, so I put a few ingredients in the crock pot for dinner. I have been at such a loss for dinners. I don't know what I want...bc I don't want ANYTHING, and then I get starving and way too sick to stand and cook something and then I am really up a creek. Jonathan started his new job this week and LOVES it. His old boss and colleagues took him out to a nice dinner Friday night for a farewell and he started at this job on Monday. I am so happy for him becuase he is so happy. But he doesn't get home until about 6:30 (with his old job he was usualy here around 5:30). This would be no big deal at all if I felt better....but that is one of the sickest times of the day for me AND dinner time which I already explained the dilemma there. Man, I just cannot wait until this all goes away. I long to feel the baby and hear his/her heartbeat and get bigger and feel all of the fun pregnant stuff, but right now I cannot help but loathe life. I just cannot wait until this part is over...all day, every day sickness definitely takes its toll on ones emotional, physical and experiential lives. Too bad my two year old has to endure this with me even though he barely understands. At least I know he won't remember it...but I still feel badly for how bored he is.

Today my mom came up and has Landon at the store looking at the monsters. He loves to go look at the Halloween stuff. He was so excited when she showed up...his whole world literally lit up. It means so much to me that she would come and take him for awhile to help me. One day/morning off somehow really helps me deal much better with the other 4 I have to face alone.

We are getting a snow storm tomorrow. I am in absolute disbelief. I am no longer in denial of the fact that fall is upon us...but winter? I am not ready for that yet. I have really been praying, for months, that God will keep Landon healthy especially through this time while I am so sick. If you think of it, could you join me in this. I really don't know that I could handle any additional struggles right now 

I am home alone, and yet I have Sesame Street on the television. What in the world? My uncle sent Landon an early birthday present yesterday...his own kid-friendly digital camera. Landon LOVES it. I will have to upload some of his pics soon. In other news...my photographer sister bought her own studio!!!! We are so proud of her and so excited for her.

I think that is about it. I am almost 9 weeks along...hopefully in about a month this time will all be just a distant memory...  I love reading your posts. I have not been on much lately simply bc typing/reading/sitting often makes me feel yucky...but I do read your posts as I can! Someday soon I will rejoin the xanga world as I once did