In my last post I referenced the fact that I was feeling like summer was whizzing by me, so I did something about it! Tuesday we played outside A LOT and that evening we went to the beach. Jonathan jumped off the pier and Landon thought his dad was the coolest man to ever live. Noah didn't really care 
. We even got to stay late enough to watch the sunset! Wednesday morning I packed up the kids and headed to my grandma's house. They have a pool and I just love going there because it is like stepping back into my childhood. Noah loved the water this time and even jumped off the side of the pool into my arms. Last time he was scared to death of it. Landon swam in the deep end with his floaties on and had a wonderful time imagining and coming up with his own little water games. After swimming we went in and had lunch with Grandma and Grandpa. I had such a wonderful talk with my grandma. She is one of those women whose life experience has a wealth of wisdom in it. We talked about many things, both cried at points, and I walked away with such a sense of refreshment and love and admiration for my grandma. My boys loved it too. I love it that they (at least Landon) will remember Gigi and Great Papa and the time that we have spent with them. It was a perfect summer day. In fact, it was so perfect that I decided to be spontaneous and spend the night at my mom's house so that we could do it all over again the next day. If you know me well, you know that being spontaneous is a bit of a stretch for me, but I did it anyway! The second day at the pool, my friend from high school came and she brought her three kids to play as well. Landon had a blast. Noah was not as thrilled (I think he was tired and hungry). All in all, it was a wonderful time and I feel much better having enjoyed the summer heat and made wonderful memories for my kids!
Lets see. We have also frequented a few parks lately. Noah LOVES to swing. Absolutely could do it all day long. He screams when you take him out. My mom used to swing for hours as a kid. He must get his love for it from her, who knows. Anyway, both kids love the park and I got lots of fun pictures.
Clearly our travels have and fun have tired the kids out. I included a picture of Noah this morning laying on my kitchen floor. He went and got his lovey and paci (which is reserved for sleeping) and laid down on the floor. After stealing a picture of him, I promptly put him down for a nap. The fun doesn't stop though. My cousin is coming tonight to spend the weekend with us. She is having a sleep over with Landon (for which he is ecstatic) and tomorrow her and I plan on taking him to an amusement/waterpark. He has no idea and I know he is going to have the time of his life. I am so excited.
Noah has begun to self-feed. Maybe this is late, I don't know, but up until now I haven't really given him a feeding utensil of his own (because it is easier and faster if I just do it myself). He is a huge fan of his new-found independence, and being a lover of food anyway...he loves it that much more now. Yes, there is more mess and yes, it typically takes longer...but the time has come and so I will give up yet another thing that I can do for him and allow him to do it himself. My big, little boy.
In other, off the wall news, Landon was eating some corn on the cob for dinner last night and was complaining that his tooth hurt. Earlier in the day I thought his row of bottom teeth looked different. Sure enough, he has a loose tooth. I was completely caught off guard. First of all, loose teeth gross me out. Second of all, he isn't even 5 yet (he will be shortly) and so I just wasn't ready for this. I got to thinking last night that when this tooth falls out, his face is going to start drastically changing. He is going to take on a boy look rather than the little boy appearance that he has now. Then I got to thinking about school this fall and how it will usher in the beginning of the the next 12 plus years of our life. Once Landon starts school, we won't be out of it until our last kid is done with 12th grade. That means no more spontaneous day trips, it means schedule, it means homework, it means growing up. I just can't believe that my firstborn, my baby...is encountering all of this already. I remember my first day of preschool. I remember losing my first tooth. How can I possibly have a kid who is experiencing these things...I just experienced them (it feels like!). I began to wonder why I ever wanted to rush through anything. Why did I ever consider putting him into kindergarten this year and why did I want him to get to the next thing...all of the time? Now I want to hold him just as he is for awhile...my sweet little Landon. But change is on the horizon once again. And this time it feels huge. He is about to turn 5, he is about to lose a tooth, and he is about to start preschool. He is not just taking one step out of my hands, but many. I think that he is ready, but at the moment, I don't feel ready. He was just my baby, then my toddler. I started this blog when he was 2 years and 3 months old. I feel like that stage lasted forever but then, without my noticing it, that toddler vanished into a little boy and now my little boy is ever-so-quickly vanishing into a big boy. I don't feel like I adequately cherished Landon's two's and three's...and now we are on the brink of a whole new lifestyle and I am not ready. This fall will bring school for Landon and an internship for me. My first time being a real working woman. Landon will have school twice a week and I will work twice a week. Lots of changes...and while I am excited for it all, I am also apprehensive to leave this life that I have comfortably lived with my kiddos behind. I feel called to this change. I can see the positives and I really feel like God has something in store for me, my family and those that God may bring my way through counseling. But I stand on the precipice a little afraid and uncertain. And in disbelief that almost five years have passed since I became a mommy...
There you long-loving blog readers. How was that for a nice long post
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