My Baby Boy
Today marks six whole months since I met my little Noah. In so many ways I cannot believe that it has been that long. The summer flew by in the blink of an eye, and now the fall has gone by just as fast. In many other ways, I can hardly remember our lives without Noah in it. I have to be honest and admit that before I had Noah I wondered in the depths of my heart how I would love another son as much as I love Landon. I knew I would, but I had not experienced it yet and so a tiny part of me wondered if it would be at all different. So many things are different with number two than it was with number one, but one thing is not different...my love for that boy is just as deep and unending as it is for my firstborn.
I didn't know there were empty places that needed filling in this family, but apparently there were. Noah has brought joy...real, true joy to all of us. He makes each of us smile...each of us laugh...multiple times every single day and he can't even talk yet! Today in church I was looking at him as he played and noticed that he carries happiness in his little eyes. I love his eyes...and now I know why. They are filled with happiness and joy...I suppose just to be alive and to experience all that a day has for him. I absolutely cannot imagine my life without my Noah in it.
I realized something else as I watched him in church today. I love this age for many reasons, but one of which is that for now...and not for much longer...he has a sin nature, but it doesn't present itself very often. There is no discipline, no character building, no lessons around every corner, no back talk, no defiance...there is just love. Yes there are sleepless nights and the occasional fussiness, but for now, I just get to enjoy him and I don't have to discipline. I know that as soon as he starts crawling it all begins. He will start to get into things and very soon from now I will say my first, "No, No, Noah!". I dread that day because it will signal the beginning of a lifetime of character building. What an awesome responsibility, but certainly a daunting one as well. So for now, I am just enjoying my little blessing. I am drinking in his happy spirit and his joy-filled eyes. I am remembering fondly the moment the doctor handed him to me and I looked down and saw a little replica of me. I am cherishing the hours I have spent holding him and looking into his beautiful eyes. I am savoring the feel of his little fingers touching my face, as he so often does. I am just loving him and wishing he could stay little for longer.
But here we are...six months passed and six more will blink by. But that is ok...because along with each new milestone will be more adventure, more joy, more life...as my little Noah unfolds into a person.
May 11 was a day I will never, ever forget. I had no idea just how much joy my Noah would bring to this family, and I bet you...I still don't know. This is just the beginning...
I am blessed beyond measure. I truly am.
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