Last Mother's Day I came home from the hospital with the best gift a mother could ever receive...a healthy baby. This year, I celebrate his birthday and thank the Lord for His gift of Noah. I truly believe that God knit every fiber of my child into being. He chose him for us..giving him his beautiful smile and hopeful, expectant eyes. He chose my joy boy...for us...and I am eternally grateful. (play audio while watching the slide show...its a great song!)
To My Sunshine Boy ~
As I carried you in my belly, I knew in my heart that you would be my joy boy. I honestly felt that when the doctor handed you to me, she would be handing me joy. From the moment I met you, one year ago today, you have brought real and true joy into my life. The moment I first saw you and held you and inhaled your baby essence, I knew you were going to add something to our family that we never knew was missing.
When you were born we did not have a name for you, but as we got to know you a little more, we knew you were to be our Noah. I cherished your babyness, held you close and enjoyed your every moment. It didn't take long before you saw the fun that your brother had in life and you wanted to join in. As much as I wanted to keep you tiny, you quickly learned to sit and crawl and walk, and every step took you a little further towards independence. The days that you still let me rock you or cuddle are few and far between, but from time to time I steal that privilege and cherish it with all of my heart. From the first week of your life, God gave me the song, Great is Thy Faithfulness, for you. I did not know He was going to do that, and we all know I can't sing well, but still we sing it. Now you sing with me, not the words, but your own baby version. We have yet to see this song fully play out in your life, but even in this first year I can see just how great His faithfulness is in that He gave you to us. We did not know just how much we needed you, nor the hole you would fill in our family. While carrying you, I had visions of what you may have been or would bring to our family. My dreams were lofty, and yet I can still say that I had no concept of the joy and love that you would bring. Your smile and your eyes are the essence of hope. You smile and light up from your toes to your little red head. You have touched each of us, in one short year in ways that are intangible. Your brother would be lost without you as his playmate. Every day you are the first thought on his mind, wanting to go greet the day with you by his side. Every evening, when you hear the garage door open, you run to the door in anticipation of meeting your daddy. You have no idea what this means to him or does to his heart. And me...you have taught me so much, son...just by being. God's dreams are so much greater than ours. You are so much more than I ever knew I needed.
Noah, the hope and joy that you exude will take you far in life. I long to keep you close and to protect you from the hurts and injustice of the world, but every day you step further into independence. I trust that God will keep you and that in time you will learn to trust Him and to love Him. Your heart is so sensitive...and beautiful. I pray it always stays that way. Your wonder and curiosity have reopened my eyes to the beauty of the world. I enjoy seeing things anew...through your eyes. You and Landon, my children, are my gifts and I am so very, very thankful for you.
I cannot believe that it has been a year since you entered our lives, and yet I can hardly remember life without you. You have made my life so very, very full. I love you. Happy First Birthday..my little joy boy.
Always,
~Mamay
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