Noah...that boy, he just lights up my life. I had a feeling when I was carrying him that he would bring joy to this family. I just had an innate sense about it...perhaps it was that in his 20 week ultrasound we got a picture of him grinning ear to ear, almost as though he were laughing out loud. I still look at that picture from time to time...becuase it is so Noah. He is the type of kid that uses his face to express so many emotions. His eyes have the ability to light up when he gets excited about something. And his face takes on the look of amazement at such small things...like snow falling. His laugh is from his belly...it is deep and you can't help but smile (and laugh) yourself at the sound of it, because there is no inhibition to his glee. He just is. Everyday he makes something new to me...he is so interested and fascinated by everything around him. And he is still my baby. A few times in the past week I have had him out and about and little kids will see him and reference him as a baby. My heart gets happy when I hear that...because I want him to still be my baby. Maybe it is that he doesn't have as much hair as Landon did at this age, so he looks younger. Or maybe it is his pudginess...or the innocence that is still surrounding him. I don't know...but I love that he can still be a "baby" to someone...namely me.
And Landon...he has such a giving heart. He has secretly been plotting what he wants to get those closest to him for Christmas. So far he has decided that his daddy needs some coffee with green branches on the package (I guess Jon walked by it and said he wanted it and Landon remembered) as well as the old version of the Little Drummer Boy (bc Jon once told him about listening to that when he was a little boy). He wants to get Noah a new copy of Tails becuase it is Noah's favorite book of all time and he has ripped the binding off of it. And he has told me numerous times that he has lots of ideas for me. And last night he went to Home Depot with his daddy and he was so good that Jon told him that he earned a candy bar...any kind he wanted. He chose a York Peppermint Patty...because he knows it is my favorite and he wanted to share half of it with me. So he gets in the car, tells me all of this, breaks it in half...and gives me my part. Noah started whining for some and I gave him a piece of mine to which Landon asked me with concern in his voice, "Mom, will you still get a lot?" He was so worried that I wouldn't get to enjoy the half of York that he chose for me. I love that kid. And the other night he had a dream that he got a wii for Christmas from my mom and that I was really sad that I didn't get a present. Crazy dream...I know. But when I woke up I found him downstairs with scissors, wrapping paper and tape...wrapping a present (one of his toys) for me. He wanted me to have a present bc I was so sad in his dream. I remember these tender hearted moments in the other times of extreme strong willed-ness this kid displays. He is a complex one...with a beautiful tender heart. My job is protecting that heart and it is a daunting task, let me tell you.
I had a dream last night...a super, duper real dream. Where you wake up and have to actually analyze whether it was real or not. I was pregnant in my dream and I was having an ultrasound to see if it was a boy or a girl. As clear as day, we had a third boy. I wonder how another boy would fit with this family? Each of my boys has brought something so unique to this family, I know another would do the same. It is just hard to imagine...what that may be.
And with that, I am off. Oh yeah...the two pictures included in this post are from Amy (www.amywenzel.com). There are a few more on my facebook account. She still hasn't given me all of the ones she took, but when she does I will share with you my password (if you want it) so you can what she did. She took quite a few of the boys together and Jon with the boys...I don't have many like that and I can't wait to see how they turned out! Again, I am so thankful she is my sister-in-law!!!
Ok, I need to go pick up Landon from school and cram for an assessment I have on Monday. Have a great weekend friends!
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