I Remember a Year Ago

I Remember a Year Ago...

I keep having these nostalgic happenings. I have been outside cutting back my landscaping quite a few times in the past few weeks (I do it when I can in an effort to get it done before winter!) and each time I am out there I remember last year. I remember trying to do it last year when I was so sick. I remember one incident when I actually laid down in the dirt on the side of my house and didn't move for quite some time...just sure that any moment the contents of my stomach would be on the dirt. If anyone saw me they probably thought I was dying...I may have even been moaning 

I keep remembering last Halloween how excited Landon was and how miserable I felt. I knew I had to make it special despite how I felt so I went out trick or treating with him. I lagged behind quite a bit but I made it. I remember seeing all of the strollers and imagining Halloween this year pushing around my baby. Now here I am...with an almost 6 month old. Another Halloween...two costumes...two kids.

I remember the anticipation of last fall...so excited to find out what we were having. I know it is human nature to forget the bad and make the good seem even better than it was. I seem to have already forgotten quite a bit how miserable I felt last fall. I keep only remembering how exciting it was. Oh well. I guess that is God's way of allowing me to get the guts to do the whole pregnancy thing again sometime...but not for a long while 

Now here we are. I have my two precious boys. No huge events going on in my life...just every day mundane things. My boys love eachother. I know I have said it before but I wish you could witness the gentleness and love that Landon has for Noah. I hope it always stays this way...I am sure it probably won't, but right now...it is beautiful. There is no other way to describe it. Landon keeps telling me he wants another brother and after that I deserve a girl baby. I hope he is wrong. But whatever...that kid is such a good big brother. He adores